P90-Day 21

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It starts…. for real

It seems like I write the same posts over and over again.

“Today I am starting a journey to a healthier me”. Well.. this post is not like the others. This time I actually mean it.

The last few weeks have been very rough for me in my personal life. Having to come to some hard realizations.. and making some hard choices. I have not had a good nights sleep in almost 2 weeks and it is affecting me in all the other aspects of my life. My entire life is about to change and I have no idea how to handle it. Except to lean on my friends and family for advice and guidance. Sometimes we have to make really hard decisions in life.. and even though we feel it is the best one, the hurt isn’t any less painful.

When I say that I am starting the journey to a healthier me, I don’t just mean the number on the scale. I am referring to me in my entirety.. the whole shebang.. every inch. I need to work on the emotional as well as physical aspects that are dragging me down. It will not be easy but it is definitely necessary.

It is time to find the real me.. I am ready!

loveyourself

~Jenn

Been a hard road.

So my blog has been a ghost town for a few weeks now. I have not had the inspiration to write at all because I have been battling some issues with my right shoulder. It was painful to even move let alone sit at the computer and type.

Over the last few weeks I have been receiving physiotherapy and treatments from a kinesiologist to try and get my range of motion back. It feels pretty good today (no pain so far) so I am happy about that. I am hoping it won’t start back up when I return to work.. but I won’t know until it happens (fingers crossed it doesn’t).

Anyway.. last night I went into the gym for the first time in forever. I had been avoiding it because of my shoulder. I did 45 mins of cardio and a couple of arm exercises at a very low weight just to see how my shoulder would holdup. Through the whole shoulder ordeal I have been eating like garbage. I am an emotional eater so for me eating whatever I wanted “helped” ease the pain and sadness I was feeling. Because I have no self control lately I have decided to start taking photos of my meals and posting them here to keep myself accountable. I plan on starting this in the next couple of days so stay tuned for yummy food photo’s and recipes 😀

I hope you all have a wonderful day!

~Onlybluemomma

 

  

It is almost time to say goodbye..

To my 20’s that is.

Monday I turn the “big” 3-0… am I looking forward to it? not so much.  There are days when I feel way older than I am and there are days when I feel like a teenager. I have experienced a lot in my (almost) 30 years and have had life experiences that most haven’t had at this age. I was pregnant with my first son at 17 and had him at 18.. married by 21 and mom to THREE by the time I was 23. My story is already quite long for someone my age.

People tell me that the 30’s are the best years. I am kind of counting on that considering this whole journey I am on to focus more on myself and being happy within my own skin. Maybe I should let go the fear of the number…and try to focus on the big things that are ahead for me?

 

30

~Onlybluemomma